Tomorrow's Christopher's birthday!

Its THAT time of the month again and my whole afternoon was spent tossing and turning on the couch, hoping the cramps would subside and I could once again, start work. Took me few hours after wrapping a warm towel around my tummy. Thanks sis for your help. If it weren't for you, I would still be tossing and turning in pain. Haha. :)


Anyway check this out. Awesome magic.



Alright, back to work. Bye.




Steph.

I feel blue.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm really such a boring person to hang out with. You can just feel it or from the way people react towards you explains it all. I hardly feel good about myself. I have always thought to myself, am I being a good friend to anybody out there? Or a good filial daughter to my parents? I can't help but feel self-centered sometimes. Like I only care about my personal feelings. Or perhaps I'm just over sensitive and thinking too much. Well that's my trait. I am forever self-reflecting and pessimistic. No wonder my blog's boring to read. There's not much content but the topic of the day always revolves around self-reflection or pessimistic thoughts. One living example is that right now, right at this moment, I am being pessimistic again. Forever. Seriously. *annoyed at myself*



YAWNS. Tired, sleepy and exhausted. Time to replenish red blood cells. Goodnight. :)




Steph.

Hickory, dickory, dock!

Busy, busy, busy! Busy Bee! Sorry for the delay. I have been really busy the whole week. With so many oncoming projects and experiments, I demand a break! Weekend has been both AWESOME and SO NOT AWESOME.

AWESOME because I went kite flying yesterday! It was super duper uber fun! I supported zdor for his I&E event by purchasing his kites! I bought a bat design. And I flew it 18 stories high! Awesome-ness!

SO NOT AWESOME because I almost fainted today. I'm either suffering from low blood pressure or dehydration. Totally ruined my whole day. I felt my world was spinning the whole time, even right now at this moment as I'm blogging. Seriously annoying. And when I tried standing upright, my body would go swaying left to right. It felt like all my blood went to my feet and none went to my head. Sigh. I wish this was over. My mum told me I would take few days to recover from it. And in the meantime, I need to drink lots of water. If the situation worsens, I have to take iron pills. They're really cute, small and bloody red. Hahaha. My friend told me it tastes like blood. Ew. And the disadvantage is it causes constipation, according to the one my parents have. I shall search for those who has a special ingredient that prevents constipation- recommended by Fran.

Alright, I better turn in early. Don't wanna faint in school tomorrow. Embarrassing much. Goodnight!




Steph.

I just turned 19 a few days ago.

19 is the last of the teens.
It marks close to the middle of a crossroad but not yet.
It represents a year above young adult and a year younger than the big 2- according to one of my friends who wished me.
It isn't a significant age to me. Just another year older.
I still have to abide by the same rules: Curfew's at 11pm, no clubbing, no supper with friends, have to turn in by 12pm every night, no using internet at such hour etc.
Thus, I see no significance at 19 years of age at all.

On the lighter note, being 19 wouldn't be a bad thing after all. I receive a little more freedom as compared to 18. I become wiser and smarter. I look at things with a different mindset and perspective. I am curious about almost every single thing, including 2 girls 1 cup (I really want to catch it some day.) I am trying out new looks and fashion. I am beginning to dress better as compared to when I just began poly. I am even more determined to work hard, just have not ignited the fire in me. HAHA. So I guess, 19 wouldn't be so bad after all. I'll just have to look at things more positively.


Well, every person can have wishes and dreams. So here's mine:

I hope to keep in closer contact with the usual people (ZI-TING, SUYIN, CHRISTOPHER, CHELSEA, BING XUN, and DION. If you're reading this, please take note. Hahaha nah kidding.) If anybody ever reads. :)

I hope to build stronger family ties and to develop a closer friendship with my existing friends.

I hope to get better grades for my GPA and make my parents proud.

I MUST GET INTO UNIVERSITY NO MATTER WHAT.

I hope to carry my duties out as a Catholic.

And... MORE SHOPPING! I want a new look!

Honestly, I am glad my dad was strict with me. Knowing my character, as stubborn as a bull, I can NEVER listen. Or should I say, I take advise from people I wish to, although knowing that it was never a solution but yeah. Nevertheless, I am thankful for the little discipline attitude I developed. It's not much but I am trying really hard.

My birthday was a simple celebration. Church in the morning, lunch at minds cafe with church fellas, and games afterwards. It was hilarious and entertaining. Laughing at how others did their taboos. I missed it so much. Awwww. I am looking for a day for zdor though. And then, back home for dinner and celebration with my family. :) I am still waiting patiently for the usual people. You know what you must do. HAHAHA! Kidding! YAWNS. I'm sleepy now. Goodnight!



Steph.

It has been 7 hours since I got home. I spent a good deal of 5 hours resting and watching korean drama. WOW. Seriously. As much as I hate to admit, korean dramas are truly addictive. Look what has it done to me! It made me wasted 5 hours of precious study time! Not that I am almost completed with the chapters but I am barely a few pages away from the introduction. -.- And each time when I try to memorize a line, I began feeling drowsy and my body will automatically drift me to the bed. There you go, another half an hour wasted. I feel helpless and super exhausted. I am utterly disappointed with myself but yet I am not disciplined enough to sit myself down and focus for at least half an hour. Oh gawd. I doubt I will perform well tomorrow. *Sobs*

Oh and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAMIEN!



Steph.